Due to recent events I’d once again like to shed some light on a very important topic, that topic being mental health. I don’t want to make this about myself, this story isn’t just my story, it counts for many. For many it’s still a taboo, which causes only more suffering. This is why It’s my intention to continue the conversation regarding mental health.
If you’ve been following me for a while you might know that about five years ago I’ve been diagnosed with a borderline personality disorder. I’m being open about it because I don’t believe there is shame in sharing something I had no control over, nor should anyone else.
We should start a conversation, not hide in the dark, letting stigmas overrule.
Another thing to keep in mind is to be mindful of the way we treat ourselves and those around us. We screw up sometimes, this is what makes us human. Don’t be to harsh on yourself when you do, sometimes I still find myself seeking refuge in that bottle of wine or unhealthy eating patterns, just because we don’t often talk about these things, doesn’t mean they don’t happen, I accept these moments and no longer see them as failures, because we can learn from them.
It’s easy to tell you to be kind to others, but how can you truly be kind to another if you can’t give it to yourself. So instead focus on yourself, and notice that being kind and sharing love becomes your second nature.
For me being kind to myself meant putting my life on hold and going through therapy. It took me five years of investing time and energy into myself to become the person that I am today. Again I also understand that I am privileged to have been able to receive this treatment, as not everyone has the same luxury. For those who do, use it. Remember that it isn’t weak to look for help, this actually required a lot of strength, its a freaking power move.
Today I no longer identify with the borderline personality disorder. What I do realize parts of my personality include being high sensitive, a perfectionist & impulsive, but it’s no longer out of order. During therapy I learned to become aware of my ticks and blockages and make better choices. Trust me, I’ve come a very, very long way. From dealing with self harm, daily panic attacks, being suicidal, substance abuse and any other form of escapism & accepting abuse. So yes, I do believe that, with the right opportunity and support it can get better. I’m still learning and growing, but we never truly stop doing this, do we?
There is so much that I want to say regarding this topic, and I will in due time. Just one more thing I’d like to add is to be mindful of the people you surround yourself with, try and be mindful of your self talk and please, try to be kind to yourselves.